Why yes, yes i do.
I can't focus. I try to concentrate on work, but my mind wanders. Cute boy with sexy smile.... sigh. I can't let myself have this crush again! No no no no no. It was too big, it made me a crazy and obsessive. Ack, i'm on that path again!!
He called me yesterday and invited me over to watch a movie. I played it cool, said I'd give him a shout after dinner, see how late it was etc. After I hung up, I promptly had a mini-seizure of glee. Hopped around frantically like the floor was on fire. All my self-restraint and "cool" was out the window. Called a friend and babbled on a mile a minute, mostly just saying eeeeeeek he called he called he called! Yeah, pretty much behaved like a 12 year old girl.
So this will go nowhere, which is why i must, abolutely must, nip this crush in the bud right now! We hung out last night, and it was all just friendly. Didn't actually watch a movie, just chatted for a couple of hours. All FRIEND-LIKE. Bah, stupid friends!!!! Sitting on the couch talking and all i'm thinking is 'damn you're cute!' Oh the agony, the torment!
I have to accept that this will always be unrequited. Must stop daydreaming and pining...