Weiners

I had such a pathetic dinner last night, I feel compelled to share.

That's right. Shrivelly little hot dogs on hamburger buns. Disgusting. I was unimpressed (rightly so) and gave most to the dog. I really should learn to cook something. I also don't feel hungry until about 9pm, and at that point I really don't have the energy to put much effort into preparing a meal. But seriously, something must be done. I may as well be living in a dorm eating instant noodles every night.

By the way, that's a side of cottage cheese with some sundried tomatoes I mixed in. Gourmet I tell ya.

Photos

I'm afraid I broke my promise. I said I would post new photos on here at the same time if not before Facebook. But this has just been giving me too much trouble on my Mac. So I posted my beeeeeautiful Mongolia pictures on Facebook. I have not completely given up on Spaces for photos, but I don't feel like fiddling with it now.

So, if you want to see my Facebook page, drop me a note with your email, and I'll add you. I have some really nice pictures that will make you realize that Mongolia should be the next destination on your wish list!

On another note, I'm so happy that the 3rd season of So You Think You Can Dance has started. It's so much fun!! I love the b-boys or whatever they're called. Such cool moves, they have totally different ways of moving their bodies!

Needs some salt?

 

*taste taste*

 

Hmm.... something's missing. I mean, it's not terrible. I've had better. Nobody's going to be begging for the recipe, that's for sure.

 

Spice? Yes, definitely could use some spice. Something to give it some zip! A bit of zest, punch, FLAVOUR! We want something so exquisite that it renders one insatiable!

 

But this, it's just... BLAND.

 

Oh, I'm talking about my life, by the way. As palatable as weiner water soup.

I'm hungry

Luckily, this problem is easily solved.

I'm restless

 

Which I suppose is better than grumpy. Or maybe not.

 

I can't take another minute of work today. And I have 120 of them left! ARGH! So many minutes of dreary agony! This is the first time I've blogged from work - and even though I have loads of things to be done, I just have to take a break. I don't know what's wrong with me today, I only had one cup of coffee, so I can't blame it on caffeine. I just want to tear through the office, knocking down cubicle walls, throwing files in the air, whooping and flailing like a madwoman.

 

GET ME OUTTA HERE!!!

 

It's taking all my self-restraint not to flop my head down on my keyboard.

 

ujhynhyjn

 

There, I flopped. It was unsatisfying.

I'm grumpy

That's all I have to say about that. Hrmph.

Long weekend!!!

Nothing else matters right now because it's finally the long weekend. Yahoo! I have absolutely nothing planned, but who cares! Doing nothing is my plan! I am so happy happy happy. Who'd have thought an extra day off could do so much to boost my spirits. Wahoooooooooooo!!!!!

I don't want to share

I'm very happy that Theran has a new girlfriend. I know he'd been unhappy for a while, and I really do want the best for him. So when he told me he was seeing someone, I was genuinely glad to here it. It's always good to hear someone you love is doing well. We're still great friends, of course I want him to be with someone who's good for him. So no bitter feelings there. Honestly.

He told me today that the two of them are going on a trip together.  Cool, sounds like fun. But... they're going to Edinburgh,  NOT cool. That's our place. That's where we met, fell in love, lived together for the first time. That's where things were perfect. I don't want him to be there with some other girl. The thing is, I wouldn't feel comfortable going there with a new boyfriend, at least definitely not on a first holiday. How can he? Isn't he going to be reminded of me at every turn? This was where we went on our first date. This is where we always met after work. This was our first apartment. This is the pub we went to every Wednesday for our pub quiz. This is the romantic restaurant we ate in on our birthdays. How can he just go there with someone new?

Can't they go elsewhere? Anywhere but there. That place is mine. Mine and his. And he's ruining it.

I tried

I really did try. Several times. I said I would post photos on here, and although I'm sure no one actually believed me seeing as I've been saying it for months on end, I finally sat down to create my first new album in over a year. I thought I'd start by posting a few pictures from my 30th birthday. Not too many, just a few to get back into the swing of things.

But every time I tried to upload, it said the connection was reset, or some other computer mumbo jumbo. I kept trying, and all that ended up happening was I had a pile of albums named May 12 with nothing in them! BAH!!! So, I give up for now. Perhaps I'll try another day.

Nameless blog

I want to write about something. But I can't. Sometimes I really wish this was anonymous. I don't want to share certain things with everyone. I don't want my friends to tsk me disapprovingly. I don't want my dad and step-family to look at me with concern. I don't want anyone I know... to know. But I have things that I want to say. There is something so cathartic about confiding in "strangers". I don't really feel like all my blog buddies are strangers anymore, but still.

But this just isn't an option. I have to keep it to myself. Pretend there's nothing going on. Insist I don't care, it doesn't matter, I'm not thinking about it.  In time I hope it will wane, and then this won't be a lie.

But right now I care. It matters. And I can't stop thinking about it.

Losing focus

I've been meaning to put photos up here for... well, I don't think "years" is even an exaggeration anymore. And what am I finally getting around to doing today? Putting up photos! Oh, but not on here. No no no, I'm posting them on my new addiction: Facebook. I will get around to putting more albums on here too, but it doesn't seem that people look at this site so much anymore. I know I have some faithful visitors still, and that makes me happy. And I know there are a few who visit on the sly and never leave messages. That's nice to know too. But I'm hardly writing anything interesting these days. So for now, the laconic Facebook has the upper hand.

But not to worry, so far I'm just posting old China photos that are already up. When I post new pictures, they'll make it here too.