It's so strange when there's something you think you really want, then unexpectedly it comes to you... and suddenly you're not sure that you want it that much after all. Or it's not that you don't want it, it's just you thought that getting it would make everything good and you'd snatch it up with 100% certainty, when in reality it's not that black and white.
How do I make my decisions? By taking chances or being careful? By following my heart or my head? Both are making compelling arguments. Emotional vs. Rational.... The fight is pummeling me, but I can't call a winner.