up and down. now down.

not feeling so vibrant and lively today. one moment i'm bursting with energy, conscious of all the things i have to be happy about. feeling good about myself and my life. but those highs are difficult to hang on to. today i feel blah. all the little things on my happy list seem superficial and inconsequential. i want more. but i don't know what the more is, so i don't know how to get it.