Monday, March 23, 2009

processing the unexpected

 

we go about our daily routines, grumbling about work or the weather or money or people. we forget how precious and tenuous life is.

 

we had an emergency meeting today to tell us that one of our co-workers had passed away suddenly on the weekend. i just spoke to him on friday, our normal banter that i always enjoyed. he was a very nice man, always calm, always friendly. and now, without warning, he's gone. i'm thinking about all that i have to be grateful for. most of all, all the wonderful people in my life. i have a wonderful family, terrific friends, an amazing boyfriend. so much love.

 

my mind is bouncing around, not really settling on one thought. just fragments. i'm thinking of the day michael died. i'm thinking of my mom. i'm thinking of stupid arguments with my dad. i'm thinking of the future with blair. i'm thinking about the life forming in my sister's womb.

 

people touch our lives in so many ways. sadly, it often takes the lack of their presence to appreciate it.

Monday, March 16, 2009

festive green vomit

 

so tomorrow is st paddy's day. i really don't care. oh yay, let's dress in green an drink green beer and get trashed!! wooooooo! why does everyone make such a big deal about this holiday? even if you're not remotely irish! but no no, everyone is suddenly all about the emerald isle and celebrating the splendors of alcohol. stupid. hey, i like booze just as much as the next person (probably more) but i feel irritated by this stupid holiday of dancing leprechauns and novelty hats and inebriated morons shouting to some "i'm 1/64th irish, this is MY DAY!!" bullshit.

 

actually, i think i just feel irritated in general. i don't want to talk to anyone. and given my foul mood, i doubt anyone would enjoy talking to me.

Thursday, March 5, 2009

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