decisions decisions

i am so useless when it comes to making decisions. options stress me out! and yet i always want to know... what are my choices? the problem is, i hate choosing. do i want to order the chicken or the beef? should i buy this shirt in blue or green? etc etc ad nauseum. i don't know! i don't know! usually i buy both shirts or neither. i order the chicken, then run up to the server and change to beef. then possibly back to chicken. and i worry until the meal arrives that i picked the wrong one. it's a disease i tell you.

so this is the decision i'm facing now. stay with wordpress or move to blogspot. i only fell into wordpress because that's what spaces upgraded me to. what's the difference? which one is better? where will i get more readers? i read somewhere that wordpress is better and recommended for "professional blogging", but i'm not a professional. and everyone else i know seems to be on blogger.

heeeeeelllllllllllllp! stupid choices. and of course then there's the actual theme/look of the blog that is a whole other slew of ulcer inducing options.

so i imported this blog to blogger and now have to decide where to make my permanent home. what do you think? please give me some feedback!

http://mandersblue.wordpress.com/

(not sure if this is the look i'd keep or not)

god bless the gentiles

the christian singles, to be specific.

i logged in to my blog today to see if i had any new comments, but alas, there were none. so i went to check my stats, to see if anyone had even been on my site today, certain my visitor count would be next to none. but jumpin jehosephat, i had 30 hits! don't scoff, that's a busy day for me. i'm not one of the popular cool kids, so don't make fun. anyhoo, where was i? oh right, jehosephat. i was shocked. where were these people coming from? time to check out the referring sites that led them to me. one view came from another blog that i frequent, but the remaining 29 came from some weird long link that was unfamiliar to me. so of course i clicked it.

ChristianMingle dot com. with a cute little jesus fish in the logo. what the-? how on earth did people go from being on a christian dating site to reading a sarcastic jewish girl's blog? hmm.... well i did have the word "jesus" in a recent title.... still doesn't make sense. but i don't care; thirty hits, woohoo! so i threw in a little 'god bless' and 'jehosephat' for my new religious pals.

sadly though, my blog doesn't have the same fancy features as ChristianMingle, like christian dating tips, searchable bible, or bible verse of the day. But i will leave you with these wise words:



my secret blog

yeah, that's right, i had a secret blog. i created a brand new secret email address with absolutely no info about who i really was. with my new secret email address i started a new secret blog. i didn't tell anyone about it. being completely anonymous allowed me to write anything i wanted. i didn't have to be clever or funny or even kind. i could speak without fear of repercussions and unburden myself of any troublesome thoughts, emotions, or experiences that weighed on my mind. it had the confidentiality of writing in a diary, but with the occasional comment from total, objective strangers. it was very therapeutic. 

that was about two and half years ago, maybe more. i can't remember when exactly i made my last entry, but the secret blog fell by the wayside. abandoned. forgotten. then today i remembered. i decided to log in to that old secret blog and read over all my old secret thoughts. but it's gone! well, not gone exactly, but it's just a title page. the name and the tag line are there... but no posts, no archives, no evidence that i ever shared a single word. i tried futilely to log in as my secret self, only to be welcomed as a new user. for 45 minutes or so i desperately tried to access my old site and find my old entries, searching through questions and answers, help groups, etc etc etc... all paths have led to dead ends, and i have given up.

i'm sad that my old entries have been lost. my secrets have been swallowed up into some dark void, confined once more only to the private recesses of my mind.

well, at least anonymity won't be a problem.

so far so good

woo, look at me go, two posts in two days! i sure am living up to my promise.

now i have to figure out how to "personalize" my blog. i can't just leave that default banner of the trees up forever. but i hate making decisions. especially epic choices like blog themes. i'll leave that for another day; don't want to overwhelm myself.

today is going to be uneventful. i stayed home sick yesterday and i'm still under the weather today, so i feel completely justified in being an unproductive lump. i'm going to watch tv, play Zuma, and maybe read my book. i can do that because i'm SICK. not sure how to justify it every other day....

the NEW blog

so, i'm all upgraded! time to get used to the new look... quite boring at the moment. i'll need to spice it up at some point.

i feel kind of sad that my old "spaces" blog is no more. i know all the content was transferred, but it's not the same. no more menacing finger pointy amanda, no more photos of the great wall or my less than great chinese toilet. no more out of date book lists or links to sites i stopped visiting. I started this blog almost 6 years ago; seems hard to believe! i remember sitting in my little chinese apartment and getting started, not knowing what to expect from this new "blog" craze. but it was the perfect way to share my experiences with friends and family. i was shocked to discover that strangers also enjoyed reading of my adventures. and you don't seem like strangers anymore :)

so i've promised to put some real effort into reviving this place. and i will. i won't be writing about living with mongolian nomads, getting arrested in a chinese military zone, or riding camels through the desert... but i'll find something. and hopefully you'll read it.

wrapping it up

 

 

ok, i'm almost ready for the "upgrade" to the new blog. I just imported all my entries, copied all my photos and all my lists... just to make sure nothing gets lost in cyberspace. I considered just shutting Whoopdeedoo down completely, seeing as i never seem to write anything anymore. but i decided against that. maybe the new format will inspire me to start writing again. it's just that i always feel so boring these days. reading back over my old adventures makes me sad. i feel very disconnected from that fun, witty traveler who wrote all those years ago. sigh.... :(

 

so i'm not traipsing around the world these days, that doesn't mean i can't still find something to say! i just can't find something to say right NOW. but later, when the transformation is complete... muahahahahahahaha!!!! ok, next time you (if there is anybody to be the "you") read this, it will be the new and improved wordpress blog. feel free to wait with bated breath.

Ack, change!

 

What the hell?? I don't visit my space for 5 measly months and suddenly i'm confronted with all these changes! First of all i have to upgrade so that i don't lose everything. Good thing that's far in the future, i would have been devasted if my space was gone. Although I guess they said it doesn't vanish, it just gets frozen. And what happened to my menacing finger-pointing photo? I've been replaced by a space shuttle! Ok ok, i suppose this teaches me not to leave my space unattended for so long. I'm sorry! I've learned my lesson! (yeah right).

 

Small, inconsequential changes in my life. I'm learning a slightly new job. Same title, same salary, i'll even be doing it from the same desk. But now instead of answering questions about employment insurance, i'll be answering questions about canada pension. Wow, how exciting. But the change is good. It'll mix things up a bit. So right now i'm in training. I've gone from a know-it-all to a know-it-not-at-all. So things are kind of interesting again. Yeesh, i never thought i'd be describing learning about pensions as interesting :(

 

Anyway, lunchtime is over. I'm going to update my space to the new and improved whateveritis and make an effort to write more often. I have to stir up those creative juices - they've grown stagnant!

breathe blog, breathe!

 

oh blog, how i neglect thee!

 

it's because i'm boring you know. i never have anything clever or witty or remotely interesting to say. i used to be a barrel of laughs, what happened!? i think it's just a lack of time available for indulging and cultivating my imagination. i have a 15 minute break in which i grab a coffee, spend 10 minutes on the phone arranging a car inspection so i can end my lease, and then no time for amusing bloggery. i'm already 2 minutes over my break time, such insolence!

 

i wanted to try and pump some life into you, blog... but no time! just a quick jolt with the paddles to get your heart beating and off i go again. i will drop by soon and try to rescue you from the ICU

things to come

 

3 minutes left of my afternoon break so not much time.

 

i've been neglecting my blog lately, not really sure why. peru was awesome, wish i'd written more. i didn't even keep up to date in my journal; i'll regret that later.

 

job interview tomorrow. i'm nervous. still need to prepare some of my answers... cross your fingers for me.

 

blair is moving in with me july 1st. big step, hope all goes well. sometimes i worry about making big changes like that. i mean, everything is good, maybe we shouldn't mess with it. but too late now. and i suppose it's the natural progression of things. cross more fingers for me.

 

break is over. 

silence

 

i love writing this blog and facebook notes and sharing my thoughts with everyone. sometimes i express anger or sadness, sometimes it's utter glee, and sometimes it's just plain silliness.

 

but i don't share everything. i can't. right now i'm dealing with my thoughts alone, and no one can come in.

I'm famous!

  So I was browsing through other people's spaces yesterday, when suddenly I saw it. My name in lights! Okay, so it wasn't in lights, it was just a link on the side, and technically it wasn't my name either, just the "whoopdeedoo" title of my webpage....but still it was refering to me! Lil ole not-humble-for-long me! Listed under 'other sites i like'. Wahoo! I'm an internet superstar (not of the porn variety). My first favourable review. My first review at all, for that matter. I was so giddy. Of course, I will not take my newfound fame lightly. I realise that now that I am a role model, I have a reputation to uphold. In fact, the pressure is quite great. I mean, now I have to make sure my site is in top form at all times! I must be constantly witty and entertaining! It's impossible! Oh god, I don't know if I can take it up here at the top.....